Emptiness and Fullness

Emptiness and fullness at first seem complete opposites. But in the spiritual life they are not. In the spiritual life we find the fulfillment of our deepest desires by becoming empty for God.

We must empty the cups of our lives completely to be able to receive the fullness of life from God. Jesus lived this on the cross. The moment of complete emptiness and complete fullness become the same. When he had given all away to his Abba, his dear Father, he cried out, "It is fulfilled" (John 19:30). He who was lifted up on the cross was also lifted into the resurrection. He who had emptied and humbled himself was raised up and "given the name above all other names" (see Philippians 2:7-9). Let us keep listening to Jesus' question: "Can you drink the cup that I am going to drink?" (Matthew 20:22). - Henri Nouwen

Today 11:40 am from my journal:

Empty.

An empty vessel… waiting to be filled.

I feel like I am going to die. I haven’t been this emotionally and physically exhausted. Lord help me.

Lord, I have nothing.

Nothing.
Left.

I am undone. Beaten. Bleeding pretty bad.

I need you to come and fill and the emptiness within. We fear our emptiness, but you love it.

Come and fill.

I have no strength.
I am weary. Worn down. Tired.

I need strength to go to this appointment.
I need grace.
I have nothing to rely on but your grace.

AWAKEN me.
Satisfy me lord with your unfailing love.

Wake me and give me the peace and joy and the fullness of the holy spirit.

I only depend on you.
All my delight is in you.
I have nothing.
I need you so desperately.

Your divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness.
Help me to rely on your power.
The same power that raised Christ from the dead, lives in me.

I cannot stand right now
on
my
own.

I need you to rescue me. To come near.
To come and fill.
I need you Jesus to come to my rescue.
No one else will do.

I come to the living water
I come to you
Meet me Lord
Speak to me
Strength
My failing heart and flesh...