- we live by faith, not by sight -
"now faith is being sure of what we hope for, certain of what we do not yet see"
*unedited/stream of consciousness to edit/rewrite
not by that which our eyes, but what our hearts alone can see. there was something that was there amidst habakkuk in the shadows. when all had been taken away. all had been lost. there is something going on as job cried out and lamented to his god. something we find amidst his heartache, disappointment, praise and despair. there is something more going on when we see shadrach, meschach and abenago in the fire. something allowing them to emerge without a single hair singed not smelling like smoke. there is something else going on when Abraham believed. When Moses followed God through the desert, though both knew not where they were going. There is something more going on when they suffer, Paul suffers and a whole host of people like you and me in between. There lies hidden the treasure we seek. as henri nouwen declares, "a life stronger than death." For there is something incredibly beautiful and transcedent in these snapshots. More going on that what the eye alone can see. Each clung to hope, each clung to Hope, and refused to let go. Refused to let their eyes dwell or focus on everything that was happening around them, though the trials they endured were "many and bitter" as David, another to add to the list, shares unreservedly in the psalms. There was something my heart can deeply resonate with. So many of these verses I've posted today that I cannot explain how much they put into words all that my words simply cannot express, of this life, this truth, this hope and this promise of the one who was, who is and is to come. These words pull and draw me into a reality that is more real than anything I can see, touch, taste, or feel. A reality that we know is all around us, calling, singing over our hearts with His song. But Moses... even when no one around him believed him or understood what or why he was doing what he was doing, Moses, by faith, continued on. He kept going even despite their jeers, doubts, insults and accusations that this God, this "god" that had supposedly led them to the desert to pass over into the promised land, was a liar. "He has only brought us out here to die, Moses we would have been a lot better off in Egypt, as slaves. At least there we had food. where is this "god" you speak of. how long? how many years? how much longer do you expect us to believe this? and on and on and on they cried. But they could not see. they could not see. But what we find in Hebrews' account of Moses in the years of leading the Israelites through the desert is astonishing. Words that leapt off the page and gripped my heart and changed everything about how I was feeling about embracing a new year. Something I wasn't sure I wanted to accept last January, as one year had brought more than I thought I could handle and I wasn't ready for whatever could be lurking around the corner next. 2010 has taught me a thing or two about life, I remember journaling. And I'm not sure I want any more of it, were my exact sentiments last New Year's Day in the early hours of 2011. After an emotional New Year's Day, on in which I woke up with an all too familar knot of nausea and dread in the pit of my stomach, everything within me was crying out for answers. I needed to know how I was going to do this, how are we going to do this God, you and me. How are we going to enter this new year, because to be honest, I'm not sure I really want to go. After a series of events, when I ventured out of the house to my favorite Starbucks, my eyes fell on these words from a favorite psalm, "the lord is my shepherd." I cannot describe the peace and comfort that flooded my soul in those moments as suddenly, I felt like I was slowly being lifted out of a deep, dark pit. Slowly, one by one, a series of verses which led me to the verses that became my prayers for 2011, also led me to one last treasure in the 11th chapter of Hebrews... After commending a list of others for their hallmarks of faith, we find one line much different from all the rest.
23 By faith Moses’ parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king’s edict.
24 By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh’s daughter.
25 He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin.
26 He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward.
27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible.
What hits me the most of the author's use of the word, "chose." It shows point blank that while Moses could have easy accepted an easy life, known as the son of the Pharoah's daughter and escape the harsh punishments his people were under, he CHOSE to be mistreated ALONG WITH the people of God rather than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin.
He chose. He made a decision based on not what his temporal sight, his eyes, could see before him, but he chose to believe that which his HEART alone could see. The God who He knew was there, whom He knew was with him. His God which he knew was bigger than anything that was currently happening. He persevered, he chose to believe and trust and follow His God. I love what comes after that example of what he chose. He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of GREATER VALUE than the treasures of Egypt... why? because he was looking ahead to his reward, his eyes were FIXED upon Him who has promised and who is faithful. We find next that Moses left Egypt, not being bound by fears of the king's anger, for He saw him who was invisible... This invisible yet at the same time unmistakable Presence we find and we see woven throughout each of those pages from beginning to end. Moses persevered because he saw something greater. He saw and trusted and CHOSE to believe and walk with the One whom He knew was for him, whom he knew was there, and whom he knew would never leave His side. The One whom though our eyes have not seen Him, our hearts know Him well. Our God, our God, who is greater. The One whose promise alone gives me life. The One who is my reason to live. To One who gives me strength to wake up another day and to walk with Him. To put one foot in front of the other and take another step. It is Him who gives me strength. He who is my strength. Who gives me grace and the strength to seek Him, know Him, trust Him and believe Him. Believe and live in the reality of His presence more real than anything my eyes could ever see. Being led and guided by the One my heart alone can see.
Yes, You are my Jehovah Jireh:
my God who is forever faithful.
I will follow You.
For He who has promised is faithful.
I love you more than words could ever express,
you are my loving God and all I am is yours. Here in your presence, I am made whole. Set free. Made new, alive again. Given hope, strength, grace, peace. Led into life everlasting. I worship You and thank You.